first one.

well.. as promised, this is my blog. (duh~) well, sorry it took dat long. =p

hmm.. now.. dunno what i should write off hand. it had been quite some time since i last wrote about anything. 

it had been quite a long period now since i've been outta my job from my previous company and joined my new place. phew, switchin from IT to design seriously is not an easy task to do. i need to pick up all the knowledge that i had collected throughout the years of self-studying about design n apply it here. it sucks! cause i know nothing at all! =( but wth, i gotta move on no matter what. 

now, since the beginning, i had been complaining to her about everything to her constantly, and she accepted it without any objections. well, the her dat im talking about, the guys who knows me, whey will know who im referring to. ( for those who dunno who she is, ignore this part.) well, i dunno. i appreciate all the time n care she gave me. but sometimes i feel guilty and sorry for her cause instead of happiness, i brought my stress and problems home and threw it all in her face. what a jerk i have been!

but i was thinkin lately. i was having this... strange feeling again. and everytime i have this feelin, something would go wrong. something had change between the two of us, and im not quite sure what it was. im so afraid that i might be dealing with the same case again, after a year since "that" incident. psh.. all i can say is, relationship, is a very hard thing to have. long distance relationship, is even harder. i tried. i did. and im still trying. and i wont stop trying until the day she quits. (hopefully, dat day wont be here. )