finally final. *this and that*

gahhh! the finalsss~!! .... well, im not that nervous actually. at least i don't feel that way. well, we'd gotta figure out that exams couldn't be that bad. hmm. well, yeah! it's nothing. ... lol.. im a freak.

oh ya, apart of that, i've got myself the petville intro theme song as my ringtone. cool eh? muahaha! now i can show it off in front of ppl. muahaha!... lol.. im a freak.

hmm, met lotsa my primary school mates in fb lately. dang, time, is rili the biggest killer of cute faces. muahaha. oops, not applicable on me. im still as cute. geez, im a jerk. well, actually, im glad that i've met them up in fb actually. memories are flooding back into my mind. (well, that was just a momentary thingy.. no biggie.. ) and erm.. yeah. i added some of the girls which i secretly had a crush on back den. muaha. not a big secret anymore ey? hehe. well, they look different now. some of em are cuter now. some of em... ermm~~ skip* muahahahaha~ im a jerk. oh well, u might think, gosh, how many crushes i had back den huh? arrghh what a playa! >.< nono. it's not like dat. i could say that im quite matured already back den. it's like, i admired alot of girls back den. and den i figured out that there's nothing possible for us at that age. so i kinda like gave up on em. just admiring. still admiring. =) matured huh? hehe. im a freak.

oh well, recently, my roommate mario went to penang island again, and so im all alone here in my room. well, honestly, i don't feel lonely. instead i feel good during his absence. muaha. well, i do hope he is having a great time there wid his new found love. ewww~ hahaha im a jerk.

sigh. everything is peaceful nowadays. which makes me even worried. well you know, the opposite of good luck is always bad luck. and the opposite of peace? GAHH!! it felt like im waiting for the bad things to come. guess i shud just relax and enjoy what i have now.

aww, i received the package from my baby rachel a few days ago. and in the box, there's lotsa snacks and a sweater. the sweater fits perfectly eventho she was just guessin what size i was wearing. nice one! hehe. such a pro now. and the sweater even have her perfume on. its not like she put it on the sweater on purpose.. long story. =) but anyways, the main point is, it smells good!! now i can imagine how good she smells hehe. arghh i sound like a perv. hehe. anyways, i'd tried the combos pretzels that she sent me. dang aint it good! lol. and i finished em. hmm.. ='( im gonna miss em combos. craving for more. as a conclusion, im a happy lil kid now. muahahaa.

i've been thinking about this one issue lately. kids, yes, KIDS who have problems with their so called 'LOVE' life. yup. thats, what i am thinkin about. well i dunno. i have one thing that i just have to say to em. STOP FUCKING WITH LOVE LIKE YOU RILI KNOW WHAT LOVE MEANS! you see, every now and den, i will come across ppl, mostly girls, who will say how burnt they are bcoz of love and so on. you see, fuck that! typically they will give you the S.O.S.. no, not Save Our Souls. its the Same Old Story. boy meets girl, girl meets boy, a few nice txt msgs, some phone calls, and they are 'said' to be going out together dy. and perhaps in between there are times where they would hang out together, well, u know, movies and dinner and all that shit.. den time goes by. some thing went wrong and they are so to say FORCED to break up, or the guy would dump the girl or vice versa. and the next thing u know they will publish their sadness to the mass audiences in the friend circle. its like adveritising to everyone that ' hey, im sad, and im available. see how loyal i am if i were wif someone? this is how hard i will cry if i lose feeling of love bla bla~ so come and hit me~ ' WTF. and the next thing u know, they will be meeting some other person again. FUCK! that is wrong. and the story keeps repeating itself. sigh. kids nowadays. what's more, some of em are even committed to the level of having premarital sex. well, im not opposing premarital sex. im just worried. what if i have a daughter in the future? and how would i be able to control who she have sex with? what if there those sexually transmitted diseases? what if she's pregnant? it would be kinda fucked up lol. aww anyways. im just saying. love, isn't about just getting together and holding hands. kissing and huggin. txt msging and long chats on the phone. those are just the fundamentals. ...... snap!* [the gesture of waking from a long sleep] wha..what am i talking about?gosh.. what happened? xD well, no offense, just expressing.

well, i guess that's part of growing up. which is getting fucked up in life for the so called love. im sure in this very moment, this very minute, some girl is blogging about how happy they are in their new found relationship. ughh~ time to wake up, BITCH!

see, im aware of all this. i hate it. but im still doing it too. i love my baby boo. =) so yeah. ironic huh? teehee. im a freak.

oh oh, its mom's bday 2 days ago. so yeah, happy bday mom!too bad i cant be there with em. grr.oh thanks for my bro in law for taking care of the bill for the dinner for me. i shud be doing that. hehe.

well, i still have alot in mind. but i dont think i would wanna make my post too long. its rather confusing. =p

so yeah, until next time, im matthew lin, signin off. =)